I’ve spent so much time waiting for the other shoe to drop, waiting for someone’s interest in me to expire, as it always does. I’m not used to this consistency but it doesn’t seem to be going away and I don’t know how to just enjoy it but I’m so. Freaking. Happy. at the same damn time.

Screw. You. for ruining this good thing for me. You made me so insecure I can’t even enjoy it because all I’m doing is waiting for it to fall apart. How dare you.

I get sick when I think about the way I’ve treated myself. I get so furious when I think about how I let you treat me just because I loved you. I’m so glad you’re gone. I’m so so so glad you’re gone. I’m better.

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Lessons

1. You, you were the first man I felt passionate about. You were my best friend, I was wild in lust, and you were the worst possible thing for me. Thanks for showing me the rush.

2. And you, you were the first man to love me unconditionally, the first man to want to protect me. It was young love, but it was genuine. I’m sorry I couldn’t love you back the same way. Thanks for showing me what I deserve.

3. You broke my heart 300 different times in 300 different ways. I loved you and we didn’t even know it at the time. Thanks for showing me mutual sadness is not romantic, it’s just damaging.

4. You. You reminded me of the first. You made me excited and you were the first one to make me feel wanted again. What a shame you couldn’t be serious about us.

5. And you, you were wonderful but you were never what I wanted. We both knew it wouldn’t work. But thanks for making me feel cherished.

Lessons.

One day I won’t have to sensor myself for someone
All of this will be not be too much for someone

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I love dreaming about you

paprikavaseline:

a hundred tiny daydreams about you

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"I wonder
whose arms would I run and fall into
if I were drunk
in a room with everyone
I have ever loved."

this becomes almost deeper when you think of non-romantic loves too

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Every time

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"Be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here."

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